Yo pienso que...

(or in English for you non-Spanish speakers, "I think that...")
I feel like I think a lot. Actually, scratch that. I KNOW that I think a lot. And sometimes it's just not good. Sometimes I just want to turn it off and stop hearing myself for awhile. I process and analyze everything...why can't I just sit back, relax, and not think?
Sometimes I worry, sometimes I just reminisce. A lot of the time it's worry. Why can't I just chill out and let God have full control? I mean, life would be so much more relaxing just to let God have reign in my life. Instead, I choose to fret over finances, fear the unknown, worry about failing, and stress about not "fitting in". Maybe I just am afraid to hand over the reigns and let someone other than me control my life. It's hard letting go and letting God have control...even though I know He is awesome and that He only has my best interest in mind.
Instead I just continue fretting, worrying, stressing and not relaxing and enjoying the things that God has blessed me with.
I have great friends, great roommates, a great staff, a beyond amazing family- in short, I have people who I love and who love me. God has provided me with the things I have needed- I have never been in a situation of desperation. Even when I act stupid, or feel worthless, or something, He is there for me and loves me just the same. And the cool part? That will never change.
I may always think a lot (I probably always will) but maybe instead of freaking out or doubting God's ability, I could just rest in Him. And maybe I could have that peace and full healing I am looking for.
God is just plain awesome.
:-)